Soul Cleansing

I laugh and crack jokes,
I hate cigarettes but I’ve smoked,
That wasn’t the answer but still I will have hope,
My body can be cleaned I have soap,
But my soul that’s a different story,
Puny mortals you bore me

You bore me with your same stories how your life is real and your drunk on beers,
Me and my brothers sister and mother spent $2,000,000 in 2 years,
That’s $1,000,000 a year selling drugs and forging checks
But let me rewind the story first just a little bit,
In 1995 no electricity in my house chill,
We spent thousands of dollars in cash without paying the light bill,
For those who know the truth know we were getting electricity from miss Sharon,
Money coming in from an over protective parent,
Notice I said parent,
My dad passed away before this happened,
But little do you know God made this all happen,
It was a test we know,
We passed it with 100,
10 years later my mother sick to her stomach,
A few years later my mother passed away from Cancer,
So with that let me explain this better so don’t read faster.
When my dad died we all cried but we laughed,
Because daddy was the funniest dude around and that you can ask,
Anyone who knew him,
And little do you all know,
I’m only funny because my dad was my hero,
He still is my hero
Zero
That’s what I call myself
When my dad died I had nothing to lose and bored myself
Tag after tag
I bombed and I bombed
2003
Long arm and baton
Arrested
Never neglected
Nights endless
Restless
I put mom through some new tests kid
Can her son prepare for a war with the law
I got out Scott free and hit wall after wall
Door after door
Got locked up again with vamp this time
vandal squad got us
And we knew we assed this time
$750,000 worth in damages
And that was just in new York
God forbid they went to Newark
Or Philly or Connecticut
The shit I said I did, I did
But the case was dismissed due to lack of evidence
Got home gave my mom a hug and I told her
I will be more careful now that I’m getting older
In the midst of all of that
Sorry but I was selling crack,
And heroine too,
That’s because I hung out with fools,
But never was I a an idiot I’ve always stayed positive
Made the money I needed to make and left to my moms crib

That’s when I fell in love with a slut from the heights
Thought she was my wife
Played me in college left and right
But it’s cool… because 2 of your friends booboo,
Now go and figure out who they are I know your reading this too,
It’s cool
I met Kat and it was a wrap
I found the lady I want to be with and that’s that
We got a beautiful boy
Zj that’s his nickname
Or Rozay when he be putting on some big chains
Acting like he’s Rick Ross my son is such a clown,
No amount of money could make me want to change how,
My life is going right now everything is good,
But I told you my mom passed away and it isn’t settling good
I miss her
I miss her
The way I used to kiss her
On her forehead every day damn we all miss her,
Chino Javi Jayson and Jessica and Kat too,
Zj even breaks my heart here and there when he asks for you,
You never got a chance to meet Zj but it’s okay mom,
And you know how I feel about the USA mom,
How you were deported for the things you did,
But because of you cashing checks we always had a place to live,
Because you sold coke and dope you made sure that our fridge
Was stacked and loaded with food because we ain’t kids,
Pardon me we aren’t kids now we all got kids ourselves
But us telling you we are over your death we kid ourselves
All of us are hurting
At least I got to confess to you
All the negative things I did for you
All the bad things I’ve done according to the state
Fuck every law in the book baby I’m great
We were hungry when younger now baby we ate
I’m at 210lbs I checked it the other day
Me and Kat had our ups and downs we broke up and had the worst times
Now we back together forever and she’s all mine,
Chino got a wifey and he’s okay he could be better
Jessi got the same attitude but she’s dealing with it way better
Jayson is still mysterious know his son is brilliant
Javi is doing good but I wished he stopped smoking cigarettes
I don’t want any of my siblings to leave this earth
Because I think that’s one thing that would really hurt
But that’s for another story
I just explained most of my life
To thousands of strangers who will read this tonight
And I made it all rhyme
Clever Joshey clever
Today is one of them days I’m a little under the weather
I breathe and I breathe
I inhale and exhale…. The last few lines will make your chest swell
Murder….. Me…. Yes… Confession
No motive self defense never found a weapon
My soul …yours to take Lord, to burn in purgatory
But me leaving my son NEVER happening that’s the end of my story….

Hope you all enjoyed this is all 160% truth, and now you understand why I am so humble. I have a lot to be thankful for I could’ve been dead or arrested.
Don’t ever take your life for granted count your blessings no matter what, of you don’t mind please sign in as a guest and leave your feedback.

Love – Joshua Zero

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15 thoughts on “Soul Cleansing

    1. Thanks Cindy, I’ve always been the type to just keep it to myself you know. But in case you didn’t know I am writing a book about my life so everyone can read

      1. Sometimes it’s better to say what you feel than to bottle it up. I know first hand that keeping quiet isn’t the most sane idea. Looking forward to reading your book!

  1. Great piece. This is a very nice narrative, I pictured each and every thing you said. I’m glad there’s still people like this around. I write too now u just got me into the mood of writing or posting up my work too! Got a lot of love& respect for you Joshua. Keep doing ur thing for ur little boy and beautiful girl! God bless!

  2. the story runs deep. i would love to read these scenarios in a full narrative. Seems like a tragic story. However, you seem to be basking in the light at the end of the tunnel. There is such a awe inspiring narrative arc here. ill rephrase my first sentence. Your story runs deep, and its great that you’re the one to tell it. i look forward to the memoir.

    “Murder….. Me…. Yes… Confession
    No motive self defense never found a weapon
    Me soul yours to take burn in purgatory
    But me leaving my son Never happening that’s the end of my story….”

    this peace left me in a bit of a paradox. As the rest of your story i took it literally. i would love to read more on this with out self-incrimination of course.

    “Me and my brothers sister and mother spent $2,000,000 in 2 years,
    That’s $1,000,000 a year selling drugs and forging checks
    But let me rewind the story first just a little bit,
    In 1995 no electricity in my house chill,
    We spent thousands of dollars in cash without paying the light bill,”

    Loved this piece too. That last line really encompasses a ton of the mentality coming from the hood breeds in all of us.

    I am a fan.

    1. Thanks man, I actually love how you took your 2 favorite lines in the entire post and added your thoughts onto it. Shows that you were really into it.
      As for the Self Incrimination… It’s a little deeper than that I guess? hard to explain online lol.
      But thanks again for reading and I will make sure you get an autographed copy when I am finished with the book.
      Cheers!

  3. Wow you were always straight forward about your like & your trials & tribulations but this by far is the best that I’ve seen. I just can’t wait till you release your book. Your mother is definitely proud of you Joshua & all of your accomplishments. Very very well put I continue to wish you the best in your life & all your endeavors.

  4. The past few days haven’t been the best for me. Maybe because both my grandmother’s and great friends bday are coming up and ironically they passed away on the same day 2 years apart. I’ve made some mistakes that could have me 6ft under but I was being watched over. Needless to say i’ve been feeling under the weather but Somehow I came to read your page, along with your girls page and well I think somehow it’s god little way of putting me back in my path of what I’m meant to do in life. You’ve got a way with words and that’s a blessing. I hope you and your girl keep on sharing your thoughts! We all sometimes need a reminder..

    I have a lot to be thankful for I could’ve been dead or arrested.
    Don’t ever take your life for granted count your blessings no matter what…

    1. Hey mare thanks for checking on the post and glad I could inspire you to keep your head up. I’m sorry for your loss as well I k now what. It’s like losing 2 people I love.

      Just keep your head up high and keep your life on track

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